Busy Busy Busy

Well I've been so busy I haven't even had time to update my journal...if I'm not working I'm in NY seein my baby boy and my friends.

I got an email from Chris I couldn't believe what I was reading when I was reading it. He gave me his cell number and said that he wanted to try to be friends again. He sent it on the 4th but I didn't get it till today because I've been so busy with work, NY, and the army. I have drill next weekend and I have no idea what I'm about to endure, but in another aspect I can't wait.

Eric just doesn't seem to get things, he keeps pushing and pushing saying to me that he knows that a part of me wants to get back together. When really he has no idea, and I really don't. I almost feel obligated to kiss him when he tries to kiss me. He wants to be friends but yet doesn't act like it at all then he wonders why I get angry and then he gets hurt. I don't want to stop talking to him but, sometimes I wonder if he's pushing me to that point. I really don't hope that's the case because that would be unfortunate.